Duloxetine and lorazepam

First, demand that the doctors abide by their Hippocratic oath (first, do no harm). Depakote and lithium are almost worse than the disease. I KNOW! The mood swings can be next to impossible to prevent. For myself, I prefer to control the worst with sedatives as needed. The mood swings are part of who I am. For me, lack of sleep is a definite tell so that I can use some lorazepam to sleep off the worst of the mood swing. You need a cooperative doctor who will help you as a person instead of just another crazy. Sorry.

Well, I was laughing throughout the whole thing. I think it was slightly too dramatic to take seriously. Like being in status epilepticus for some unknown time in front of her daughter, that cant be controlled until examined at the er and given multiple drugs...and she lived to vent her urine and feces another day. So, they tried lorazepam, phenobarbitol, and valproate, but had to give up, intubate her and then give her propofol, the anesthetic that killed Michael Jackson, ketamine, and lidocaine in order to stop her hysteria. And they topped it off with xenon and nitrous oxide. Damn.
When I read this paratrooper will kill you, I don't think being serious was ever the intent. What's next, are you going to put on your robe and wizard hat?
But the ending and the use of a human choice and not a damn plot device to get to it was good. The length of conflict wasn't unnecessarily long. So, the best way to reconcile this with reality is that this is a joke.

There is good news and no so good news.
The good news is I am writing regularly again. The source of this is my psychiatrist has put me on a new medication called DULoxetine HCL DR. It is an anti-depressant and pain-management drug. The 'down side' is it isn't a drug you normally give to bi-polar suffers because it causes you to 'cycle'. In my case I've begun to cycle rather rapidly ~ but considering this gives me hours of inspiration, I'll take it!
The not so good news is that while I've been inspired, I've been inspired to work on WMD 4 at the moment, churning out over 10,000 new words and hopefully getting to a point where I can submit it to my editors before this weekend.
That done, I'm unsure if I'll finish right away writing the sections I need for Chapter 48 ~ Cael's trip to Chicago to wrap up some of his family business, the pre-dinner 'celebration' for the Great Hunt, the conclusion for the Great Hunt - all of which I know how will turn out. I just need to put thought to page.
Honestly, I've got almost all of Ebb Tide 4-B in the bag as well.
Best of all, in my opinion, I HAVE NOT written anything in any NEW stories in four days. That may sound odd, but with the way my mind works, it means I'm able to concentrate on my established story lines ... which means things will finally get done!
Thanks you all for your patience.
James aka FinalStand

God damn give it a rest. Repeating the same fucking things over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again!!! STOP!!!!!